when I went back from China to Australia after the winter break, you met me in Sydney and you said I love you for the first time.

You started to always try to "secure" me but fail most of the time, that is cute.

You scootered me to and back from uni everytime when we had lessons together.

We watched Avator together in Australia during the semester break and both enjoyed a lot.

We went to blue mountain together, we were at a beautiful live music concern together, you puked that night and we changed hotel the next day, that was a very sunny hotel room.

You were always worried about me every time when I went out for an interview with a stranger, sometimes you went to the train station to pick me up when I finished work late.

You drove back to Sydney after the trip to Melbourne, we had sex and slept in the car. You took me to walk to your hostel the next morning.

日期：2013-02-07 04:52:50

The year between Australia and Switzerland

Full of happiness and pain, we both gave up a lot to stay together. I started to go down in the relationship and got insane. Why did you love me so much and decided to stay with the pitfall me.

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We went to the monkey island in Saigon and played with the naughty monkeys.

We took so many pictures.

We cuddled in the cold bed at the terrace field, the bed was so chilly but we were so close, my heart was so warm.

We arrived in Switzerland the first time together, I was so so excited and your parents were so lovely and friendly.

We reached the submit of the hill across the river in Florence, and were both so amazed that how beautiful the city is.

We cuddled in the small hostel room in Venice, with another couple, wanting to touch and kiss each other but couldn`t.

You cried tens days before i left Switzerland the first time and told me that you wanted to stayed with me, you felt pain even physically thinking about breaking up with me.

You sent me to the airport and we could not see each other for 35 days, you cried at the airport.

You picked me up from Pudong airport in Shanghai after my last trip to Australia.

I took you to the glamour bar in Shanghai, and both enjoyed very much.

I like it when you do full body "bobo" and you make the pappy face when you want something like a back scratch

You texted me ": girl I love you and i am with you" the day when I went to find out the result of my HIV test result.

Switzerland

Sad, painful, depressed, but love sparkled somewhere, or every where. We both tried so hard but in the end surrounded into reality.

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You picked me up from Zurich airport in Feb, 2012 when I come to Zurich, expecting a good life together with you.

You bought me the cute Pengu in Turn Coop, that was so sweet.

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日期：2013-02-07 04:56:56

After my depression:

You were so nice to me when i just got the depression, but it got bad when I got much better. I sometimes don`t understand why, that we both gave up after the most difficult time.

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You cuddled me the told me that you would send me to the emergency of VS on the way back home for Easter, and you did it the morning after. (ps: I could only slept for half an hour the night before, listening to your heart beats).

You picked me up from the airport very early in the morning from Zurich airport after I visited home for two weeks, you bought me flowers and showed me the nicely furnished apartment.

You called the Kiz that morning and took half a day off to take me there, you told me": this time we will fix the girl for now and forever." You went to visit me that night, I was crying and could not breath, you held me and comforted me the whole time.

U got off work one day early because of me and took me to the health care company and register. I had a terrible panic attack, you held me the whole time. I was shaking so badly in bad when we went back home, but with you I calmed down.

You told me ": I love you" one night before sleep. And it sounded real. I was so moved and so sad, I thought, if I am like this and never get better, I ll let you go.

You gave me the mini speaker as my birthday present, because you wanted me to be able to listen to music and be able to relax better, I was happy and moved.

You texted me ":baby how are you doing?" at noon when i was alone at home. you even called me one time when I did not reply.

I was so sad and cried and shake on my 28th birthday, could not even go to the restaurant you booked, you were with me the whole day, I felt that I loved you so much.

You took me to the Chinese restaurant later when I felt better, you spent nearly 100 CHF. The food was not so good but I was so happy.disclaim.txt

U took 3 days off work and we went to VS, you took me to the lake/dam, it was so cold but I felt so sweet and sad.

U did not let me have more teamster for my own sake, I was so so mad but I knew that it is because you cared about me. When I cried in that week I thought that I love you so much that I ll let you go.

You bought me watermelon one time, only to find out that I bought one for myself already, but I really appreciated.

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i want you to know that i feel so guilty and sorry that i could not make you happy, i know you tried very hard, and i tried very hard, but i could not feel happy for a long time, maybe since September 2011, but with you I could not walk away then.

i want you to know that i never take what you did for me for granted, I remembered lots and lots, that is what makes me so sad now.

I want you to know that no matter what you do, I always will care for you and want you to be happy, as your girlfriend or as your friend.

I want to let you know that I will try my best to live a good life and stop being a burden, I also wish u a better life ahead and we can both move on.

I want you to know that I will always love you, in one way or another.

这封信也是一边掉眼泪一边写的

真真是，若是人生只若初见，那该多好。透过这封信，我看到了25的我，喝24的他，在卧龙岗大学携手漫步的身影，此情只待成追忆。我们都回不去了